Crazy Cat Lady

Feeling great.

2005-07-06T10:45:00.000-07:00

Well, the depression kicked out, the mania ran it's course, and I stayed home and attacked the laundry room as a result. All I gotta do now is pass my courses and volunteering through that and I can coast on sanity for a lot longer this time.

It's funny how you can think you are doing so well and taking on new tasks, only to find that it is your illness is taking on new tasks. I have to admit that my big temptation is coastin on that edge of sane/insane for that extra adrenalin to get through each day and workload, to have the stress feel like it bounces off of me like pointy balloons. But, that is merely a false idea. I lack skills for coping with stress when it's me related. That's what sends me into overdrive. I find that If I don't put my foot down and say "uh, no. I'm not gonna do that chore/stuff today, I'm working on this.", I am saying "yeah sure" which can translate into
"sure, I like to make myself go nutsy-tennis." which in reality, I don't.

People that ask me to do things aren't aware of what I am about for that, and that's fine, it's myself I shouuld be aware of, and less co-dependant, and more able to say stuff like "actually, I'm too busy for that." and et cetera.

Here are some links That I frequent while at home:

http://www.viceland.com/ (a magazine, not a xxx site)
http://www.progressiveboink.com/ (misc site, incredible)
http://www.cheston.com/pbf/archive.html (hilarious comics)
http://www.x-entertainment.com/ (nostalgia site)
http://www.defectiveyeti.com/ (a dad blog)
http://www.retrocrush.com/ (contains an interview with David Teague, animator for he-man and she-ra!)

Steve had a birthday

2005-06-29T18:55:00.000-07:00

Go to www.thesneeze.com.

If you click the link, you will only get the gif. So, go to your url, type/c&p the addy, and there you go.

Just being upfront.

2005-06-29T11:10:00.000-07:00

Right Now, I should mention something to you...I'm bi. BI POLAR THAT IS!
Okay. all fun aside, I've been prescribed my cautionary pill on top of the regualr epival, reduced coffee intake (oh please no.), and am fighting boredom off with my computer. Iit's too hot for outside, too bright. I have lots of energy to do chores, but lack the motivation. I should eat something...I will. I have to give thank you's to:
pweination.org for allowing me to be chatty,
my family, for doing the same thing and noticing
my job, for being understanding,
and my fiance for treating me like a princess through this ordeal. I'm stressing him out and I hate it. If I offer to help he won't take it, knowing full well it's part of my insanity. I'm co-dependant in nature, so when in mania, it's multiplied. I can help him by helping myself though. PS, I have a flickr account.

Dear Reader

2005-06-29T10:58:00.000-07:00

Dear Reader,
HA HA HA! this is funny! no one will ever read this. This isn't my first attempt at blooging, but I've fudged it so many times that this is my last attempt. I've used other blog and let's just say that this should be amusing. Amusing as in, watching a little chick with a shorter leg peck and scratch for food. Yeah, that chick was born that way, waah no fair, but awe cute, it's giving its all.